Post-Christmas Meltdowns and Embracing Anxiety (yeah, right)

“Oh, this has been one of my better Decembers …and that included chopping off part of my finger.” was my summation of the holiday season to a friend of mine last night. Kinda sums up what I think about Christmases in general. I boycotted the whole thing this year; vastly improved my quality of life. Continue reading »

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Day 58 – she lost her focus

So, my first attempt to do sitting meditation since I said it was such a good idea to get back to it on Day 56 didn’t go well. In part because the mosquitos attacking the only exposed skin of my face as I sat outside in the dusk wrapped in a blanket were detracting from my state of equanimity, but moreso that I sat with this song in my head Continue reading »

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Day 28 – thoughts on men

Somebody was telling me about one of Mark Hopkins’ We Should Know Each Other events in his livingroom. He got the conversation started with the question: what scares you? Good one! I’m all for getting people beyond the shallow small talk, and this question is a hum-dinger way to do that.

It also got me thinking, what scares me right now? Continue reading »

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Day 7 – passing for normal

This post has a theme song, so go ahead, click on the link and play it in the background while you read. I’ll wait…

John Mayer – Gravity Continue reading »

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Day 4 – what was I thinking!

Yep, four days in and it’s just sinking in, what I’ve gotten myself into. Trick is, when you’re feeling stuck on a fundamental level, and you commit to doing something to get unstuck on a fundamental level, you’re going to change things on…well… a fundamental level.

Oh crap. Continue reading »

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