So, I took the risk and did the scary thing, asked for what I wanted. And it worked! Of course not neccessariy in the way I might have expected (life’ll do that to you), but definitely got what I needed (life’ll do that to you too).
Funny, ’cause going in I don’t know what I was really asking for, I just wanted to find something where I didn’t feel stuck and held back – again. And I got it.
And it’s such a bloody relief. I can now relax open my life to the influence of someone I enjoy and admire. It seems a small thing, but something big has shifted for me. I’m feeling way less stuck. And maybe simply because I don’t feel like I have to hold back. My soul said: go there, explore that and I was saying: no, I can’t do that. Turns out I can.
I know not going where my soul pushes me makes me miserable, but sometimes it takes me a while to get on board when I don’t understand the push. It invariably takes me down unexpected turns, but man, it sure takes me interesting places!
I followed that call, took the risk, did the scary thing; and without really changing much in my life, somehow everything is different. Got up this morning, looked in the mirror and said to myself: It’s a brand new day, girlfriend! Don’t know why I feel that, but I know it to be true.
Brand new day, and the sun is shining to boot! Yep, there’s a song for that too:
When all the dark clouds roll away
And the sun begins to shine
I see my freedom from across the way
And it comes right in on time
Well it shines so bright and it gives so much light
And it comes from the sky above
Makes me feel so free, makes me feel like me
And lights my life with love
Makes me feel so free, makes me feel like me – yep, I’m back in the groove baby! Booya!