It took me a while to comprehend the early hullabaloo around social distancing. Having long ago already built a life around suddenly not being able… Read More »What Chronic Illness Has Taught Me Might Help You Stay Sane in a Pandemic
I was watching a nature doc one afternoon. These filled so much of my recovery time, diverting, minimum emotional stress, and a nice quiet narrator… Read More »On Baby Whales and Zombie Social Dynamics
In honour of St Patrick’s Day, my #100daysof contribution for today is a limerick: I’m not wearing green, don’t lynch me. Comprehending my motive’s a… Read More »Sohbet – not wearing green
After finally curing myself of my compulsion to argue with reality (pausing while ya’ll laugh your asses off at that…) I have discovered I’ve just transferred this habit to arguing with people about whether or not THEY are arguing with reality. …yes, I know what that sounds like when I say it out loud, but at least I know I’m doing it. Ever since I came back from my retreat my groovy peaceful has been tested as I get caught up in these debates with people being irrational. Inside my head I am shouting OH MY GOD I AM NOT A TREE I AM NOT A TREE, and while this gets me some points for self awareness, it’s really not going well in the outside world.
But I had a great insight during meditation; a paradigm shift that has cured me of arguing with others about their arguing with reality
Right, so while I was there to watch my friend’s desperate (and successful) eleventh hour crunch to get his 50,000 words in before the midnight deadline–fuelled and inspired by truly awful ninja movies (I think perhaps other people’s bizarre and reckless storywriting gives you permission let go on your own giant brain dump) I was surprisingly happy with my own abysmal failure in the matter.
I didn’t even come close to the 50k mark, but hey! I doubled my wordcount from the five thousand I started with. Considering that first bit took me two years, and doubling it took me under two weeks I have gained a better understand of my capacity and what a bit of push and focus can do.
However, what I’m really happy about are all the things I learned about myself while I was not even remotely succeedingRead More »Celebrating My Failure!!!