I was really looking forward to sitting this morning. Yesterday I had too much going on and just couldn’t bear the stillness. The sit I put off ’til last night was fabulous – quiet and grounded and deep.
Today’s sit was very different, and not just because the sun was upRead More »Day 37 – 100 different flavours
I feel like crap today, did an interesting thing though. Started my meditation while still feeling like crap. Usually I putz around ’til some combo of food, meds, coffee, napping, gets me feeling like I can start my day, and then I sit. Today I just sat. Sat with feeling like crap. Just allowed myself to be fully present in that, instead of trying to distract myself or fix it.Read More »Day 34 – turtle as a verb
Pooped today. I’ve done a lot to be expansive (energetically speaking) the last few days. Performing with Samba is a very therapeutic adrenaline rush – always good to give those sluggards a zap! (um, I mean my adrenals, not the audience). Connecting with the crowd, being a conduit of joy is a pretty awesome experience to have.
But I can’t do it all the time. And after such an expansion, I need contraction, and solitude.Read More »Day 26 – solitude, seeds, and hope
I watched Scott Pilgrim vs. the World last night, and for reasons that don’t necessarily make sense, it helped a lot of what I’m struggling with make sense. The themes in the movie centre around all those stupid hurtful things we do, even when we don’t mean to and we’re just fumbling along in our own flawed human way. The triumph of the movie is in owning your own shit and getting a second chance to do it right.Read More »Day 13 – Scott Pilgrim saves my world
Upon entering today’s title – which was meant to be two separate, though related ideas – I’m suddenly struck with a rather evocative (and revolting) visual. My first response is: Ew, Valerie…drop the turd. But on second thought it may actually reveal a deeper wisdom.Read More »Day 9 – shit happens, let go