Suffering is character building, I talked about that a lot in the Storm Chasers post, we grow as human beings with what we are forced to go through. But sometimes the suffering, whatever the source, is too much to bear. Too much to live through, quite frankly. If you are pushing at the boundaries of what you can bear (or left that line behind long ago) I have three very important things to tell you, so listen up…Read More »Feeling Suicidal?
Have you ever not known how badly you needed something, until you finally got it? I had that kind of weekend, a lot of gratitude tears were shed. I’ve always been a make-do sort of girl, ’cause life doesn’t always throw you what you want. It took me a long time to make friends with my needs. I had a mentor, used to always say to me: how’s your neediness today? When I stopped getting angry when she asked that I knew I was finally okay with the part of me that knew I couldn’t do it alone.
Funny thing owning up to your needs, it doesn’t guarantee you’ll automatically get them met. So THAT pissed me off for a while.
Read More »Creativity as Dreaming – wisdom on needing, and a rant about dating
In honour of St Patrick’s Day, my #100daysof contribution for today is a limerick: I’m not wearing green, don’t lynch me. Comprehending my motive’s a… Read More »Sohbet – not wearing green
…’cause yeah, I don’t have enough going on. But this will be good for me. I’m a big fan of 100 day projects, mostly from some half-remembered science that shows that is how long it takes to re-map your neurons, to really make a change stick.
When I started a 100 day project online a few years ago, I got lots of engagement, not just people excited about what I was doing, but inspired to take on a 100 day challenge of their own. Bryan McLean was one of those, and because he’s more bad-ass than I am, he has been doing 100 day projects every spring ever since. He’s spooling up to do another one here shortly, and chatting with him about it reminded me it was maybe time for one myself. And maybe you’d like to join in too…Read More »100 days of …creativity
There was something formless and perfect
before the universe was born.
…since then it’s all kinda gone to shit.
I’ve had a hard time addressing this chapter, in part because it’s been a couple of stupid-busy and disrupting weeks for me, but probably moreso because I have been feeling less than perfect in myself and my life as of late.
I tend to run a cycle from competency in one area of my life into boredom, which prompts me to hurl myself into some new area, overwhelmed and insecure I flounder my way back into competency …then boredom …then down into humility and round we go again. Somehow as of late I have managed to sync up all the different parts of who I am into a down swing in every facet of my life. Painfully aware of nothing but my flaws. So yeah, not really jiving on the “perfection” of this chapter.
I think the lesson though, is it’s in the flaws where the magic happens. Imagine a world where everything WAS perfect:Read More »ToV 25 – perfectly imperfect